So here I am. 36 years of age and living a life that balances between what God wants and what Iwant to give to God. Most of the time it seems that I prefer the pain on my heels as I drag them in the ground attempting to not submit to God's will. Other times I would appear to be that I'm going with God's flow and feeling good about it. And when the dust settles I am good with following God's will. But the internal struggle will always continue till I'm kicking it with JC himself. So I try to take stock of my life and the gifts that God has given me. Obviously there is salvation and forgiveness and all that great amazing stuff. But it's the other gifts that I want to talk about. For example, I for one seem to be able to take on extremely stressful situations and deal with them without even breaking a sweat. I work with juveniles in a lockdown facility. And that is why I think my calm demeanor is a gift from God. Mind you I still struggle with the daily life of keeping my mouth shut and and abstaining from gossip and the sort.
And since I was young I loved to draw. The first time I saw a comic book store I thought I died and gone to heaven. So naturally I was drawing comic book stuff and collecting comicbooks as long as a could remember. Now, working with the kids that I do, God in his infinite wisdom has brought me to a field that allows me to connect with kids through my artwork. Which then opens a door for meto talk to them about God and my faith. I seem to be good enough to keep the attention of the kids that I work with but never good enough to break into the comic book world. So here I am... 36 years of age and finally starting to understand God's plan.... kind of. I guess that's the point, isn't it. To do our part in God's plan and have the faith to submit to him knowing that our knowledge will never be enough to do anything else but our own walk... In my case, a walk with a pencil.
By the way it's my first blog. So be gentle.
Comments
I loved reading this. A man with the humility and devotion to accept what God has for him, and to know it is a worthy walk, a blessing to others. I'm think you probably touch more people with your art than many do, and in a more immediate and real way!
Thanks for sharing Dan, your post was good regardless of it being your first. The struggle you describe is one of sanctification. Persevere and be encouraged. :)